Will I ever accept my trials?

So, I have been thinking alot about my life lately, and about certain situations that I am faced with. I have some major blessings in my life, but at times I tend to get depressed about the situations that I cannot control. We have been looking for a home to move into, and it seems like there is nothing that is working out, and it is so frustrating. When we moved here, we were excited, and then there were so many problems with the neighborhood, and our house, that we are going to be moving, and it is so hard to find a good rental. We can't buy for another year because Tom needs a two year average to get a loan because his job is paid on commission only. Also, we would really like to have another baby, but with all of my fertility problems, its probably not going to happen. Sometimes I feel like Heavenly Father doesn't hear me, that he doesn't care about how I feel. I love my two kids, and my husband, but I want what I want when I want it. I am not a patient person. Anyways, sorry for the depressing post, but I just needed to vent!

A new little baby!

I just had to write about the new little baby girl who was born just a few short hours ago. My little sister just gave birth to Payten Deann Parker, a beautiful little 6 lb. 12 oz. 20 inch little girl. I am a proud new aunt! It seems like it was just me and Tom sitting there in Jef and Jamie's shoes. How can time pass so quickly? My baby will turn 2 in May! Where does the time go? It was so weird to see my baby sister as a new mommy tonight! I still think of her as being 12 years old, her hair in a pony tail, tagging along with me and my friends, and me telling her to get lost. I never would have guessed that we would become close friends, and spend hours talking, and hanging out. She is my only sister in a house full of boys, and I love her so much! I hope she and Jef will have many happy moments, and enjoy their new little bundle of joy! And, I already know that I am the favorite aunt!

Happy 32nd birthday Tom!

So, I just wanted to wish Tom a Happy Birthday. I can't believe I've known him for over 10 years. He was fresh off his mission when we met. For those of you who don't know, he was my home teacher in college! Who would have ever thought we would get married, and have kids? I just want Thomas to know what he means to me. He is the most wonderful husband and father in the world. He is the one person I know that understands me, and loves me for who I am , and doesn't expect me to change. He has stood beside me through all of lifes challanges, and always gave me encouragement when I needed it the most. He even gave me shots through both rounds of in vitro without complaining. He is respectful, and kind, and loving, and unselfish. I am so grateful to have such a great husband. He always helps me around the house, and with the kids, and is always trying ways to improve our lives. I love him so much, and I hope he has a great birthday!

Yay!! Pictures

Well, I finally figured out how to hook up my camera to my computer, technology is amazing! So, now I have pictures of last month. We had an amazing time on our cruise. I'm so glad we were able to hang out together as a family. The kids had so much fun. They both loved the beach, and getting their feet wet. I promised them we would go in the summer so they can actually swim in the ocean. It was really warm in California, about 65 -70 the whole time we were there, and we were sad to come home to the freezing cold weather and snow. We got home on the 21st of December, and then it was Christmas! Our christmas was so much fun this year. Kids make it so fun. Everything is exciting and fun. I promised Carleigh we would make sugar cookies for santa, and even though I had the flu, and a fever, I kept my promise! Christmas morning was really cute, Carleigh came down the stairs, and just looked and looked, and didn't even touch her presents. I finally told her to pick one out, and she was so excited about every present she opened. She helped Tyse open all of his presents too. They were both spoiled, and they both got everything on their list. Carleigh's favorite presents were her jewelry and her vacuum. She loves her new dolls too. Tyse loves his new fire truck, and all of his balls. He is such a boy! Well, thats enough rambling for now, hope you all had a great holiday season also!

Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year everyone! I can't believe another year has come and gone. I am excited for whatever 2009 has to bring. Sorry I don't have any pictures yet- they will be coming. We had an awesome time on our cruise! The kids had so much fun. We were able to go to the beach, and the kids loved getting their feet wet. We also had a wonderful Christmas, we were all spoiled, and we all had a great time with family. I will post more about last month when I get my pictures on here. But, for now, I hope everyone has a great 2009!