Will I ever accept my trials?

So, I have been thinking alot about my life lately, and about certain situations that I am faced with. I have some major blessings in my life, but at times I tend to get depressed about the situations that I cannot control. We have been looking for a home to move into, and it seems like there is nothing that is working out, and it is so frustrating. When we moved here, we were excited, and then there were so many problems with the neighborhood, and our house, that we are going to be moving, and it is so hard to find a good rental. We can't buy for another year because Tom needs a two year average to get a loan because his job is paid on commission only. Also, we would really like to have another baby, but with all of my fertility problems, its probably not going to happen. Sometimes I feel like Heavenly Father doesn't hear me, that he doesn't care about how I feel. I love my two kids, and my husband, but I want what I want when I want it. I am not a patient person. Anyways, sorry for the depressing post, but I just needed to vent!